by, 07-15-2012 at 03:05 AM (1424 Views)
written in movie dialog format.
REVELATION 12:7 Now war arose in heaven, Micheal and his angels fighting against the dragon; and the dragon and his angels fought, 8 but they were defeated and there was no longer any place for them in heaven. And the great dragon was thrown down, that ancient serpent, who is called the Devil and Satan, the deceiver of the whole world -- he was thrown down to the earth, and his angels were thrown down with him.
During the monolog, scenes will flash in the background that depict the current part of the monolog as it can, or continue a story while it catches up.
It was a long time ago, the war. There are times I either can’t, or don’t want to remember how it all started. But I do. In time you’d think it would fade, the bad memories that keep you up at night. Now they haunt me at night just as much as the day it happened, as surreal as it was even at the time.
It seems at times you never want to hate someone, or even fight them, until you realize you’re different. Then it inevitably turns into a battle of who is better or which way of life means more in the overall scheme of things. So, one day long ago I made a choice. It was my first one really so I don’t hold myself in too harsh a light for getting it wrong, but I did. So very wrong. You see, it seems with a free will comes a vast superstition that magnifies all the differences God placed on man but never really gave to us Angels. And like I said, I know all too well the wars a simple difference can cause.
To be specific, God gave mankind freedom of will, and his unquestionable love. Angels were just cast aside and sometimes nothing more than a pawn in his reindeer games. At least, that’s what I’ve come to call them. If he wasn’t going to love us like he did man, why did he make us? Why were *we* not enough for Him? Why were this “differences” dividing us? I never could figure these out but I’ve been given a long long time to try.
Anyway – this choice I made. I chose to follow an angel named Lucifer when he started making demands in behalf of us all. I was never clear if he wanted to take Heaven for himself, or just wanted Gods love in the same light as he gave it to man. I just wanted his love and used this “Free Will” God has given to us only to find that while He may give it to you, He doesn’t always approve of the manner in which you use it. Suddenly a good many of us were gone, cast out of heaven. God even went so far as to mutilate many of my brothers and by the time it was all over, those of us cast out couldn’t even agree on what to do next. So I made my 2nd choice and I went to go figure things out for myself.
From time to time my path does cross over other Angels and it’s always been a fight for my own life as they don’t understand how I could abandon the cause. I’ve tried to tell them I redefined it but they don’t understand. Or they simply choose not to and just want things to be as they were, before God created and loved man. Something tells me now even that wouldn’t be enough for some.
So now I find myself walking the earth living as best I can among the monkies…um, mankind. I help when the mood hits me to pass the time and I keep looking for my own way back home because to me I simply couldn’t go back the way I left, not if what I wanted was why I left to begin with. I hide at times, live alternate lives in my own “quest” and maybe one day I can explain to Him why I made the choice I made and why I will stand behind it to the end. I suppose that’s the cost of free will.
For today I only know that a nightmare to an angel comes across insane in today’s world. My depressions run extreme as I fight my own God given purpose while I try to understand why I must. The last thing free will is, is free. To just take a break from things, I checked myself into a low rent mental institution where no one would care and I could pass my time as I saw fit and my nightmares could go unnoticed by those around me.